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How do we make our choices and how do we live our life is a question for every body. If I make selfish choices for my personal benefit at the cost of others, I am leading a low level life. This way of living diminishes my well being and well being of society. In order to live life fully I need to set values that enrich my life and the lives of others. This is a radical shift in my consciousness moving from a lower level of consciousness to a higher level of consciousness. I expand my consciousness by surrendering to higher consciousness. As the author of this essay James O'dea says "A Higher Level of Conscious Engagement".
When I see people who are suffering physically, mentally and emotionally I feel deep compassion for them. I extend my hand to help them by counseling or doing what I can to reduce their suffering. My actions are based on my deep compassion for them without expecting anything in return. This is my way of practicing Karma Yoga. This way I am detached spiritually, fully engaged without being bound by my attachment to the fruits of my action. This is also an example of a higher level of conscious engagement. Living this way brings deep joy and fulfillment in my life. Keeping the light of self-awareness and following that light helps me avoid self-absorption and superficial understanding. I have learned to step aside when a selfish thought or a desire arises in me. Remaining awake and aware helps me of not getting trapped by my self-absorption and superficial understanding. Light of self-awareness keeps me walking on the right path. Namaste!
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The short story "Two Drops of Oil" authored by Paulo Coelho makes me aware of enjoying the wonders of the world without losing the core of my being, the essence of my being, the Two Drops Oil in my spoon. When I get caught up in the outer world by losing the center of myself I deprive myself of the fullness and richness of my experience. Then I am not fully present with myself. Half lived life is not worth living.
When I meditate I taste the fullness of the present moment. Inner and outer distractions fade away and I am in the flow of the present. When I am fully present with someone close to me, I feel deep connectedness between both of us. Such experiences are enriching and fulfilling. When I walk in nature mindfully I am fully present. I get deeply connected with nature. In this busy world it is hard to find alone time, a time in which I can be myself without distractions and demands. I carve my own time to be with myself fully. This way I fill the cup of my life and gladly share it with others without expecting anything in return. Loving someone unconditionally fills my heart with joy. Namaste! Reading the essay Thirsty For Wonder authored by Mirabai Starr stirred up thirst for wonder in me. I welcome such thought provoking writings and I am thankful to Mirabai for offering this gift to us. Her writing made me introspect and reflect. It is my experience and observation that we usually stay in the known zone. It is relatively a safe zone. However, there are times when I want to beyond the known zone-the unknown zone, the zone of unknowingness. This is wonderland for me where beauty unfolds herself effortlessly, an unheard sound resounds in the heart, and the sky of the mind is clear and is filled with divine light. It is an eye kissing light, heart feeling sound.
The sacred or the divine is always present but our eyes are closed to see it. I need to cleanse my eyes to see the unknowingness; to open my ears to hear the unheard sound; to open my hands to receive the Divine Gift and open my heart to feel the Divine Presence. I experience such moments when I am fully present in the present moment with me, with someone close to me and with nature. It happens when I do not try to make it happen. It happens when I meditate; when I teach or help someone needing help. Such experiences enrich me and lift me up. Quiet, clear and unclouded mind helps me to pull the veil back. The veil clouds my consciousness and creates separateness and disconnect. When the veil is pulled back, I see the light of oneness, one unified consciousness. Such experiences are sacred. They deepen my thirst for wonder. This is an inward journey. Daily practice of Mindfulness Meditation, being in the company of kindred spirits called satsanga, reading inspiring and enlightening books or poems and serving people unselfishly helps me in my spiritual journey. Namaste! There is a basic difference between searching and finding. In searching we have a goal to achieve. So there is a seer and the seen, subject and object. There is duality between the subject and the object. This is a kind of doing or in the words of author Rob Burbea is "fabricating". This is our normal way of thinking and searching. What we are searching is colored by our desires and expectations and it causes elation and depletion. We are bound by this cycle which is called "samsara." Finding is discovering, something that is always "is". This is our "being" or Self The seen the world, always changes. The "seer", Self, is unchanging.
Normally, I am a citizen of two worlds. One world is made up of changes. This world has ups and downs. This is a world of doing and having. When I am not caught up in this self-created dichotomous world, when I am "awake" and aware of this dichotomy I am a citizen of a different world. It is a world of "being". I realize the oneness of all beings. It is a unitive consciousness. We may call it a world of TRUELOVE. This is the miracle of living. Reaching out and helping someone who needs help, caring for others whole heartedly expecting nothing in return, not harming others, daily practice of mindfulness meditation and practicing mindfulness in everyday living helps me to be connected with "Being". This is the way of freeing myself from myself. The light of awakening and awareness helps me walk in the journey of my life. Namaste! Sylvia Boorstein has written an interesting article and here's my reflection to it:
Who am I is a perennial inquiry made in all wisdom traditions. Is there oneness underlying manyness? Is there unity underlying diversity? What causes suffering? Who is suffering? Is there something everlasting? When I identify myself with suffering and dwell on the story of my suffering, I am trapping myself in suffering. Then the blame game begins. She insulted me. He abused me. The mind keeps on telling this story of suffering. This is the haunting and trapping voice of the ego continuing the story of suffering. Awareness of this ongoing mental melodrama and chattering is a way of going beyond the storytelling of suffering. It is not easy to wake up from the slumber of self-created suffering. It is hard to be free from the self-created shackles of suffering. It is journey of self-awakening. Waking up from the nightmare of suffering is not easy. It is difficult to rise up from the self-generated fall, to wake up from the sleep and remain awake. I have been learning and practicing to keep the lamp of awareness shining in my transactions with others in my everyday life. Practicing mindfulness in my everyday life has been very helpful to me. Such practice helps me from draining my emotional energy and not losing my healthy emotional vitality. Namaste! Things happen in our life. We experience ups and downs , joys and sorrows, gains and losses, sunrises and sunsets. We have a tendency to personalize them. As result like Mark Manson says (in the awakin.org) we place ourselves onto to a self-esteem roller coaster, where our self-worth bobs up and own. I know I am not perfect. There are times when I have not been successful. What helps me to go through such experiences is to remind myself that I am not a failure but I have gone through a failure. The same way when things go my way I remind myself that I am not a success but I have gone through a successful experience. This way I do not get trapped by my ego.
I have gone through a number of experiences in my life that have taught me not take ups and downs in my life personally. How I perceive what happens is my life makes a big difference. When someone praises me or puts me down, I do not get inflated or depleted. Many times I take their perceptions of me as their self-projections. Practicing discretion helps me separate milk from water called nirakshira viveka in Sanskrit. As I was growing up my father taught me this wise saying. When someone throws a judgmental or acritical arrow at me, I pause, take a few deep breaths make a wise choice, separate milk from water. Life is a school for us to learn how to live mindfully, how to go though ups and downs with equanimity and gratefully. Namaste! Susan Kahn uses the metaphor of Emptiness Cafe to convey the idea of emptiness is fullness. The Spanish mystic John of the Cross calls 'unknowing' an ecstasy. Our mind is mostly dwelling on the same known thoughts. Thought is nothing but a thing. When my mind is still and free I am hanging out in Emptiness Cafe. In this clear and empty space I feel the fullness of the present moment. It is like hearing the soundless sound.
When I am in deep meditation and when my mind is free from distracting thoughts time disappears. I am in Emptiness Cafe where life unfolds with no boundaries of space and time. It is an experience of enlightenment and fulfillment, and abiding love and joy. Like Rabindranath Tagore sings, "Ah, the light dances, my darling, at the center of my life, the light strikes, my darling, the chords of my love." Duality is caused in the mind when I relate to myself as not a integral part of the universe. Then the walls created by the conditioned mind between me and the others create a mental split. It is a divided self. Listening to mystics, reflecting on their words of wisdom and integrating them in my life has been very helpful to me to see non-duality in duality. Daily practice of Meditation sustains and reinforces my stance. It helps me to see and experience the unity of life. Namaste! Selected verses from Tejobindu Upanishad:
Let us meditate on the Shining Self. Changeless underlying the world of change, And realized in the heart in samadhi. They alone attain samadhi who have Mastered their senses and are free from anger, Free from self-will and from likes and dislikes, Without selfish bonds to people and things. Though the three gunas emanate from Him, He is infinite and invisible. Though all the galaxies emerge from Him, He is without form and unconditioned. To be united with the Lord of Love Is to be freed from conditioning. This is the state of Self-realization. Far beyond the reach of words and thoughts. To be united with the Lord of Love, Imperishable, changeless, beyond cause And effect is to find infinite joy. Brahaman is beyond duality, Beyond the reach of thinker and thought. Brahman cannot be realized by those Who are subject to greed, fear, and anger. Brahman cannot be realized by those Who are subject to the pride of name and fame Or to the vanity of scholarship. Brahman cannot be realized by those Who are enmeshed in duality. But to all those who pierce this duality, Whose hearts are given to the Lord of Love, He gives himself through His infinite grace; He gives himself through His infinite grace. God makes the rivers to flow. They tire not, nor do they cease from flowing.
May the river of my life create the flow into the sea of Love that is the Lord. May I overcome all the implements in my course. May the thread of my song be not cut before my life merges in the sea of Love. Guard me against all dangers, O Lord. Accept me graciously, O King of kings. Release me from my sorrows, which hold me as ropes hold the calf. I cannot open my eyes without the power of your Love. Guard against the grief that haunts the life of the selfish. Lead us from darkness into Light. We will sing of your Love as it was sung of old. Your laws change not, but stand like the mountains. Forgive me all the mistakes I have committed. May mornings dawn upon us again. Guide us through them all, O Lord of Love. Translated from Sanskrit into English by Eknath Easwaran. I recommend every reader of this page, to read the beautiful short story narrated by Gopal Dada. Below is my reflection to it:
What is the purpose of life is a perennial question asked by philosophers, mystics, sages, spiritual seekers and persons like me. Gopal Dada uses the metaphor of the Hole-y or leaky bucket and its connection to the purpose of life. The leaky bucket represents our imperfection, impurity and ignorance of our own true identity, our true nature which is whole and and holy. Our spiritual practice makes us realize our true nature, our ever- blossoming pure consciousness. As Mencius, a Confucian sage says," By exhaustively examining one's own mind, one may understand his nature. One who understands his nature understands Heaven." To understand the inner world is the key to understanding the mind, myself, my true nature, and wisdom about life. I have to keep my inner eyes open to see the inner light. This is a life-long project. My daily practice of meditation develops qualities such as calmness, clarity and concentration, sensitivity, compassion and self-awareness. Studying and practicing the Karma Yoga, Yoga of selfless service, with no expectation of any personal reward in return has been very helpful to me in my spiritual journey. Awareness of my attachment to self-serving and self- binding desires and freeing myself from the grip of such desires expands my inner world. Such spiritual practices create "a blooming garden" in me. Namaste! |
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